Originally posted by Addictive
ok i've worn out my welcome here a long time ago , but before i do go i just wanted to explain.
im not trying to excuse my behaviour because what i did wasnt right despite what has happend but hopefully this will give you aa better idea.
in the past 4 months i buried my grandad , i hadnt seen him for 1 year up to the time he died as he was in a hospital in spain with serious lung problems. then 3 weeks later my grandma died and both opf them didnt get to see my new born daughter courtney their 1st great grand daughter. i suppose im just feeling regret or hurt , i dont know since their funerals my head hasnt been the same. i start off meaning to pay someone ( i dont mean to scam them ) but when im half way through i always disregard the fact that my credit card is empty and fail to tell the people that. i dont realy know why i do it , but this sort of thing would not have happend over 4 months ago.
i just want to say that ... doberry .. im really really sorry . i didnt mean for this to happen and i wish that i could change things.
Mike, again im sorry . you didnt deserve any of this ..and dont take it personally.
i am really really sorry . your a great bunch of people and i shouldnt have done what i did. i think it may be down to built up aggression / depression inside about my grandparents that has been building up all this time and then suddenly comes out.
im hoping to see a doctor sometime next week to talk about my depression and hopefully will get my head sorted out.
a lot of you wont belive what im going to say next but it is true and for what its worth ( which at this moment cant be a lot)
exactly 1 month from now i WILL return here and will pay you doberry and Mike for what you did for me... i know your thinking " Yeah ok .. whatever" but i will... i really want to fix this but at the moment i cant
for now though .. doberry i would like you to have the domain you helped me to get i will PM you the details for it soon and will give you the account details so you wont have to pay for a transfer . please accept this until i return with the payment along with my apologies.
Mike , the logo you designed for me.. i deleted from my harddrive. but will still pay you the $40 as promised. and hopefully if you still have it you could send me it again once you have been paid.
im sorry for my behaviour here and understand that no-one here will ever trust me again but i have grown attached to the place hence all my aliases as i couldnt bring myself to dissapear.
anyway .. i hope you can all forgive me in time and i hope i can still keep visiting here , if no-one wants me here then pleasee tell me and i'll try my hardest to stay away.
once again ... im really really sorry for all the trouble ive caused